God Gives to Those...

Getting to the Panama airport was a pain because this was the small airport for commercial flights. Finding a taxi had been extremely difficult with people saying they knew where it was and then would ask questions. Finally, one came along- a jolly kind man from Panama. Oh does God send those people at the right times. The times where I feel annoyed or I feel concerned that I won't find a cab in time. I ended up being a whole hour early and while people stood in a huge line, I had my printed pass.


While sitting there eating my avocado, rice/beans, and plantains(I feel like this is the main food I mention-sorry not very exciting). To my left there is a young adult running around smiling and laughing. Immediately, I identify that he has Mental Retardation. He reminds me of a boy I worked with in California. He always had his hands placed up and bent in front of him. This boy was always smiling as well. Do you ever notice those with special needs are always smiling? God makes them smile and present their beautiful souls. Their faces may be disfigured and their bodies and they may have no ability to walk or think like the "normal" mind, but they are smiling. 


When you see these children, it's common to see loving and caring parents.  This boy had two patient, loving parents who accommodated his needs, gave him space, and redirected him as needed. When he ran around, they remained calm and sat him down with a video game. They kept giving him hugs and kisses-all we need is love.  It was evident that these parents were meant to have this child. God gave them this child because he knew they could handle it through his loving spirit and strength. From my experience in social service, special needs parents prove themselves to be the most amazing, loving parents.
 

God gives to those...Who can handle it

This means that God assigns tasks to those he believes in, those who need a challenge, those who need a wake up call, those who are strong yet they do not exercise this strength, those who rely on beauty/image, those who are unaware of purpose, those who can share a greater message, and those who with enough courage and personal values to achieve his goals.

 

Priest to the Rescue

When I came into the bus station to see the French 14 year old girl staring right at me and laughing, I was not looking forward to this trip. Did I have to do 11 hours with this family?

Of course, God came through setting me up with some more wonderful people. I sat down and looked at the man next to me. I started my friendly chat asking him where he is from and where is he is going. "I'm going to visit a church in Panama for a mission." "I'm a Priest..."
 
Oh thank you Lord!

I look to the right and there is a nun.
He asks, "Would you like the window seat? " I say, "No, I'm fine here." I was focused on the seat to the right of me. The nun with the bible sitting in her hands-later on in the journey it was an Ipad in her hands-ha. Nuns deserve to participate in the technology trend too. 

As for my priest, I share my mission with him to believe in others, assist them through the church, spending time with the poor and needy, feeding them, and caring for their being. We had this discussion about being a missionary, which I was questioning this trip. He shared with me that he travels around Central America staying for certain periods of time. He has been a Catholic priest for 30 years and each day he "wakes up with passion"(his quote). I could tell that this man was just dedicated for life and there was no questioning his faith. He has never married or had kids. He doesn't feel the need to and wants to just live in his religious world. I am asking all these questions because I am always curious about the life of a priest and nun. This priest seems a bit more conservative as some priests are a bit more on the edge. 

The nun was focused on the bible, her Ipad, and book. She looked over and gave me an occasional smile. When we stopped for food, we snacked on some rice and beans together. He was my bus buddy and I was thankful to have him near me. He kept me calm, safe, and preoccupied for some time. 
When we stopped, he bought me some fruit and we were shopping around for hammocks. He would hold the hammock with the guy selling and let me sit and swing in it. When it was a cheap one, my butt would hit the ground. When it was a decent one, I stayed above ground with a chance of the bottom stretching like it might bust. When it was a good one, I was able to contently sit and happily swing back and forth.
This priest made up for the negativity I experienced and he helped me focus back on my mission and reason for travel. The reason did not involve trying to make French people happy with me.

Income to Prove

Unfortunately, God does not make the world with the intention of making money and materialism the core component to success.  Love, health, purpose, spirituality/religion, family, and personal success are incredibly more important.  This world focuses on income and money more than the actual work that is done.

You could be saving the world from world hunger with a new theory and proposal that took you ten years to create or invent.  A person would say, "Were you working when you did that?"
"How did you pay your bills?"

If that person still looks healthy and well put together, you can assume that they met their basic needs just fine without your unnecessary question. 

It's so sad that people find such need to question income.  It shows how superficial our world truly is and your world may include your own friends and family who judge you.  They don't see you functioning like them on a 9-5 basis, therefore, you are not succeeding. 

Again, you could have amazing theories and be planning positive, effective, impactful plans to help people.  All you get is, "How do you pay for vacations?" "Who pays this?" One must be doing something to get money. Those who have heart and work with passion are broke in financial value. They may stay that way or they may wind up like Deepak Chopra, Joel Osteen, Bill Hybels, Oprah Winfrey.  People who combined their amazing passion with leadership and money making.  

Of course, most people would not admit that that they don't want both, but they do.  Who doesn't want the publicity and the ability to impact not a thousand people, but millions. The social status to influence people all over the world. People do want that raise of income as long as their passion and character stays the same.   

Those average people working in ministry, non-profit, and ngo's are not making any money.  They do it for the passion and the love of their work not to prove income. This is how they may live  their whole life or they may be promoted, start their own organization, write a book etc. This is how  the passionate survive-they think of another creative idea. They don't just focus on 
"How much money am I making today?" 
"How much is my income going to be this year?" 

It's about being responsible, paying bills, taking care of their family, shelter, transportation, and food. Some days may be tough and you don't know where the next mortgage payment will come from, but that's where God comes in and makes things happen. 

These people who question income may be unclear on the beauty of faith and love for Christ.  When you are committed, God will take care of you. God will open doors and present opportunities. He will have you receive a grant or scholarship.  He will have your car or house sell. He will take care of the electricity bill with a credit.  These things happens when you believe. Those who question income are living in the socially constructed bubble and may be stuck inside that, which is common for Americans. But perhaps they just don't have enough trust or faith in God for what he can do. 

My whole entire life revolves around my faith.  My main support has been my faith.  When I couldn't pay my college tuition, I received a 5,000 check in the mail.  When I didn't know how I was going to eat for the week in New York, I found a $50 bill on the ground. When someone stole my purse, I met an angel who helped me get it back. When I had an unsafe living situation, he found me a place in the Catholic housing.  

When you stop worrying so much about money is when things happen. Perhaps those rigid, structured ones think that sounds stupid and irresponsible.  In my defense, maybe I can say that you just don't have enough faith and need to let go of materialism and focus on feeding your soul. 

Believe in Your Purpose

While my motto, my email, my company name of Morocco- a purpose is never a joke whether it is real. Everyone has one and they might not know where it is or how to obtain it, but it remains inside of them.

Whether its in the states or abroad, I am always challenging others to find something real and inspiring within them. They may have an idea, bring something up in a short conversation, write it down, or simply demonstrate an expression of desire or passion. Immediately, I notice these things and I introduce them to reality. It's possible to not just believe in a purpose, but there is a possibility to live it.

Many people of disadvantaged populations or struggling with life's problems feel their purpose is lost and hopeless. With their internal belief and God by their side anything can be possible as long as realistic goals are in place.

For instance:
At the San Francisco church, this lovely, lovely man had a passion for architecture. A few years ago he designed the ceiling in the back area of the church. 

"Would you like to see my work?"Architect 

"Yes, I would." Pris

We walk over and I recognize the ceiling and I felt very proud that he was the one who did it.

"Do you like it?"Architect 

"Yes, I love it. All the detail is fantastic. Wow it's so great."Pris 

When it comes to the purpose, you can not give enough compliments towards someone's purpose.  You have to keep encouraging them on and on until you see a smile or confirmation that they feel it.  This man was overflowing with happiness already, but when I said this he was so proud and surprised I liked it. 

This man mentioned how difficult is getting a job in Nicaragua. It's not the same as it used to be meaning they don't want that laborious work done because it's too costly. He showed me his sketches with such passion and pride in his work. It did not matter if he did it for money or for free-he dearly loved his work. While he had some  disappointment in his voice, that hope still shined through with his smile and optimism. If I only had this mans optimism, it is just beyond admirable.  It was clear he was driven by purpose. All he needed was the appropriate work to continue to support his mission.  
  
  God bless this man on his architecture purpose. 

                        Believe in Your Purpose 

                     

              

The Last Supper Dos

                      

Overtime, the last day is not necessarily the most difficult.  When you make your presence, time, and commitment crystal clear from the beginning, the final goodbye becomes easier.  It's when you show up, make connections, take some photos and leave. This is problematic and just completely wrong to do.  With people being my ultimate love and purpose in life, I have to make a true commitment to not let them down. Of course, I may disappoint or make people feel sad with my departure, but it's never intentional.  I only want the best for them and I try my best to give them my all in the time I have. 

Not to mention, these people were special. There were connections made in short time, stories exchanged, motivational talks, spiritual guidance, and independence grown. I am truly not the one doing the teaching rather they are teaching me about their life, their choices, their experiences and I am always learning from them.

We are a co-created team of voices that learn from each other. They need the belief in their potential and being to rise to the occasion.  These people didn't feel supported in this church and it was up to them to build their support from the inside.  Just like my church Willow Creek, they have to build their own sections and supporters. It doesn't just come from a sermon or getting meals each week.  In this case here, it was just about the meals each week-a typical occurrence for many churches I have seen in Central America.

At this last meal with my new friends, I arrived ten minutes late, which is not great because they have a tendency to eat and leave. It's always hectic the last day because I am trying to say goodbye to everyone in town-difficult mission.

It was a grand entrance with the royal red carpet in front of the church- no way.   There was the same group sitting in the corner under the tree and a few sitting in the shade eating their food. A few of them waived and I walked in where I was immediately greeted by Rosa. Whenever she saw me, she greeted me for one second and then asked a million questions. There was Jorge sitting at the table with his cowboy hat smiling big and he said he would come to Chicago one day to see me-cute.

My special needs girl was there sitting at the end of the table.  There I sat with all the questions and goodbyes and Dios contigo(may god be with you).  They were interested in knowing where I was going next and why I couldn't stay with them. This splits my heart in half, but there's always going to be people to serve and I can't stay with all of them forever. When you are pretty much the only one acknowledging this population and you leave, it's difficult. We were all smiling and laughing and I walked around giving some motivational speeches, "Keep believing, Keep the faith, Count on each other, talk and support each other, keep singing, utilize your friends as support."  I encouraged them to meet after the meal time in a small group to discuss their week and goals. This worked for the older men and some women joined together, but many just dispersed after they finished eating. 

Someone had the quote if you can positively impact one person or cause them to think different then your job is done for the day.  Of course, I want to help everyone and be superwoman, but that's just not realistic with this population.  The acknowledgement and motivation makes an impact on the being. 

After their meal, I sat outside with people having the inspirational talks, the hugs, the pats on the back, the smiles, and the handshakes. The one husband who had to ride 30 miles to work by bike in the sweltering heat, to make sure his kids were fed each day, said

 "I know Jesus will guide me to a better job, but we just don't know when."

It's priceless to see what faith these people have and some would say that faith is all they need, but I disagree.  These people deserve more human attention and more real caring and support. Al, 

 who sings and plays guitar in restaurants knows his purpose, but it doesn't pay the bills.  He doesn't have a place to live, but he has purpose.  

Does purpose trump "Maslow's Hierarchy of needs?"

Or does he need to keep working, believing, and praying for his growth of his purpose? Eventually, his purpose should align with his needs, but right now he may need to focus on another job to help him.  The problem that everyone has is that the jobs are "not available," which is partially true.

There are so many different environmental factors that go in their current situation, but I hope I shed some light on how important it is to believe in people.  To just let them talk to you, share some things about yourself and show you're human.         That's all I can ask.... That's all I can ask. 

When I leave I just have to pray for God to take care of these people. It's up to him to keep up his love, support, and miracles.

Out of respect their is limited photos with this population.  It's not respectful to take photos inside the church. 

Sometimes it's best to put the camera to the side.

A Fight She Won't Win

Sometimes the fight feels like a hard one to win. While nothing will be perfection and progress does occur, when will the brick wall come down?  As a human being, I fight hard for people and I believe in their potential to rise despite the way the world perceives them. Sometimes people cross my path and I wonder if they are going to win the battle against a world so cold.  

When it comes to the underprivileged community abroad, there is such disregard for their being by community and governments. The government has little to no consideration about their food, education, and shelter.  Community NGOs, various local organizations, and the church advocate for their rights, but the negative perspective of  the world leaders remains the same.  When it comes to their personal struggles: alcoholism, drug addiction, poverty, and the psychological consequences-people are lost. That person with depression should get out of bed. That personal with Bipolar disorder should control their mood swings. That person with schizophrenia should put on headphones to get rid of the voices. I have to work all day and these people should too.  The hospital is there to treat them if they are sick. While I try my best to educate others by making real analogies, demonstrating internal struggles, and giving them step by step ways to assist. And it's my belief that the change is truly made one human being at a time, which keeps me going within my work. 

Although, the overall population in the world does not get it and some days traveling make it difficult to believe.  People choose to label this population-those who are underprivileged encountering mental illness as "crazy, sick, or pathetic."
When it comes to Mental Illness, it takes a person who has a personal experience with it or a mental health professional to even begin to understand. These who do have a family member or friend may be blind at first, but the time with individual becomes a learning experience. 

If it's not you're family member or friend, are you willing to take the time to learn or will you choose a label? These people are human beings with feelings, dreams, passions, creativity, love, and curiosity. They want to see the world and be a part of it just as much as the Sally with the Yale degree, the perfect job, and recent engagement. They are not given an equal, fighting chance.  When these people are seen talking to themselves on the streets, standing in line at the church for food, or crying for love and affection.  The light bulb needs to go off that these people are human.  They are human beings who deserve acknowledgment. They deserve a hello, a how are you, a question about their life and interests because they are human.  There is no reason to discard their feelings and give them a dirty look as you are superior.  This mentality will not get the US or the world anywhere.  It's the mentality and the superiority that are true barriers towards reaching significant progress. 

Each day I will keep fighting for this population because I believe in them... I always have and I always will....

                      Think before Judgment

Legless Passion

There was a lovely man in the park with no legs, but a spiritual standard to live and follow. He had a strong belief in God and a persistence to keep living and moving. While he was not physically moving, he was moving with the shifts of life. Life takes you down paths you can least expect, gives you trials you wish you never had, it tests and questions your faith all the time, your spirit feels gone, but you continue on. We continue on and this man continued on.

He believes in God with his two rosaries around his neck and his kind spirit in his heart.
He sits in his wheelchair in front of the church as I talk with about his life, work, and purpose. He is selling cartoon character balloons for 50 cordobas each about $2.00.
They would cost about $5.00 in the states as they are considered a specialty balloon. While I look around the park and often talk around and know who is selling what. I know that no one else is selling these balloons. I tell him that this is a major accomplishment and a great item to sell. He smiles kindly and says,"Gracias."

 It was clear through his expression that he appreciated my words and he inspired me.  I would hope that many people have told him that, but I know that probably no one told him that.  We have to acknowledge people for what they are trying to do, how they are making a living, and their efforts towards a better life.

Those people who are so positive when they have such to deal with a disability on a daily basis-this is inspiring and deserves acknowledgment.  They get up and show up everyday to make a living.  When he told me he lost them in a mechanical accident, he did tear up a bit and he looked down, but he did not focus on this one accident in our conversation. His life was not defined by this one moment, but it was defined by his persistence to keep going. He was not going to roll over and die, but he was going to fight. He was going to live. He was going to create. 

When all you got to keep is strong Move along, move along like I know you do And even when your hope is gone

Move along, Move along Just to Make it Through

-Musician-  

Blind And Hungry

It is almost 9 pm and I am walking the streets looking for people to feed. I know that I´m not suppose to be out that late and there I am walking the dark streets with few tourists in sight.  
In my vision, I see a man stumbling around appearing to be lost or confused with his location. 
 He finally sat himself in front of the post office. I wondered what was going on with him. He had this adorable chubby face, blue mittens, and torn up light blue coat. His eyes were wide open, but had no awareness to my presence.

At that point, I realized he was probably blind stumbling around with no stick-great. 
I asked him if he would like some food and he 
didn´t say anything. He does not comprehend what is going on and I am realizing that he does not understand. I told him to just wait for me and I would return shortly. I buy him a can of Orange soda(for some reason I thought he would like that) and a hot dog( probably not the best food to feed a blind person. 

I quickly bring it back and place it in his hand. He smells it and I can finally see the smile I was waiting for(not completely altruistic as I prefer to see a smile). He takes a bit and slops some on the ground. I decide that I'm not sure how the blind people eat a hot dog, but maybe he needs some help. I hold the hot dog and feed it to him bite by bite along with his can of soda.  His happiness is actually present through his eyes and his smile-it's beautiful.  No one around, but two spirits connecting.   For someone blind on the streets, that adds a whole new level of difficulty.  That wouldn't happen in US because there would be many government agencies and state assistance to take care of him. There's only one to watch over him now and that is GOD.

For God's work, you don't seek recognition.  You do it from the heart because you know it's what you were born to do...

 Just born this way.... PRIS

Queen of "Vacation"

When it comes to "vacation." People who call me the "Queen of Vacations." Not one person would ever call me the "Queen of Purpose" because they feel that all I do is "go on vacations." All my education and work is not given any recognition rather I'm just someone who likes to vacation. This is an unfortunate way of thinking as people cannot connect travel with work unless your stationed with a big company in the US or abroad.  To serve the underprivileged in countries is something that is "nice to do." It's not a real job because it does involve six figures. There needs to be that "label" for someone to take you seriously otherwise you are just a girl who likes to vacation.

As I get older and I become increasingly molded into my purpose, the desire and possibility to take vacation has significantly decreased.  All my travel I want to be connected with my purpose to work with the community, schools, churches, organizations. To perform interviews and/or studies learning about the culture. 

People ask me to go to fancy beach vacations and I know that I internally know that I don't deserve it. Once I create that label and recognition for myself, it maybe a possibility. The taking a vacation just to "take one" is out of style for me. It's not a vacation that I want to focus on and that's never been my main intention. I am just discovering how to work with people in all new ways. The humans who suffer from poverty, addiction, abuse, loss, and tragedy. Those who are starving to learn English. Those who have such beautiful faith and just need inspiration and someone to believe. Those who are lost and need to find their way home. Healing broken families and empowering youth. 

This is PURPOSE. This is not a JOKE. This is a JOB. A job through GOD.

When it comes to my purpose, I am aware of it. Maybe I was not fully committed in my early 20s. Perhaps I did take more vacations back then, but I am fully aware and committed now. When you know you have responsibility and that someone who loves you more than anyone is counting on you-you must act.  You can't be wasting time on vacations rather you know you have work to do. You have a commitment and you have to stick to it.

Of course, it may not be with the UN or Doctors without Borders or the Peace Core. When you are able to work and connect with a whole community in a short period of time-this is powerful and your own label can be created in time. You work hard, be persistent, stay patient, and keep the faith. 

In Nicaragua, Belize, Guatemala- there are many things to do. Of course, I would like to enjoy a few things here and there. But when the need is presented, I have to take action.  The need has been presented from Day 1 of the trip. My purpose for being here was clear as crystal. I had no doubt with my decision to come and clarity was delivered on a silver platter. There were whispers in my ear from up above saying, "Priscilla, you have to help these people." "It's in your hands." The signs were all there and God lead the people in my direction each and everyday. 

In Leon, the need had exploded.  People told me to go see the beach and go visit this and that volcano. It was not possible to do all these things, but I did explore all the churches, explored 1 volcano, and enjoyed a couple museums next to the church. A real purpose has little time to take a vacation or enjoy. God has proved it´s never a true break for me.... 

As a human traveler, I choose to enjoy the culture, the place, and see what the city has to offer. It does not mean that I am out of my purpose or I am vacationing all the time. Also, the reality is there are days when these cities are shut down, quiet and no one is around. As a therapist, I know myself and how I function best. I function best with good food, good sleep, and mental breaks. 

Clinically, it's healthy to enjoy yourself and reward your own good behavior. When you are in a foreign country, you have the God given right to explore-especially when it comes to nature and man made wonders of the world. There is such beauty in the world and sitting in your office and never seeing it-it's a shame. For me, these times with nature are religious moments and conversations with God. It's like a Vitamin C boost where it helps me keep going. It reboots my system. I go through a laundry cycle and then I'm fresh and ready to go.

When it comes to taking those mental days of rest, it does not mean I just completely shut off like a light switch.  No matter what time or day,  I Never Stop Connecting.  It's the man driving the bus, the man cleaning boards with this two children, the pregnant woman on the roadside in my walk, the cleaner in the church, the housekeeper in my accommodation. 

There never really is a true "vacation" because Priscilla's front porch light is always turned on for people-always. 

Rarely will I not listen to someone and turn them down when they have a smile and an open heart. Those who are in need, just need some confirmation, just need a smile, just need a pat on the back, a person to sit with them on the floor, a person to listen to their music, or a person who wants to hear their food is delicious.  It's a never ending job, which makes me proud, spiritually satisfied, and touched.

It's not something I expect anyone to understand, but I hope people can know that I may have presented a certain life of vacationing in my early 20s, but those days are gone. It's about traveling with purpose and meaning to educate, believe, inspire, pray, empower, assist, and build their feeling of worth.  

The God Given Purpose

When I was a child, there was always this deep curiosity inside of me. I knew that there was more than the suburban life I was given.  There were people in my neighborhood with problems who I gave my time, my listening, and support. Truly, I was a born therapist with a heart for others. It was in my genes from a father and grandfather who dedicated their life to others.  I believe it was also in God's plan to be his assistant in helping humans feel better and become better individuals.

With this growing mind, I knew there was something much bigger out there.  My curiosity grew for people. Why people were ill and why they suffered.  When people asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up I said "A Clinical psychologist." That's what I thought would cure human suffering- a doctor.  As many others believe, I thought that a psychologist could help a person and cure them of this pain. 

Now I realize there are two different healing processes: one involves medicine and the other involves God. It's possible for someone to combine both of these healing processes into one and this is what is most powerful.  

With the young Priscilla being passionate for psychology, she studied some theology, but endlessly studied psychology. The human behavior of people

 fascinated me like no other and everyone was aware of how passionate I was about this subject. From the age of 12, I was sure that I wanted to study human beings for life.  Instead of taking a couple courses, I took all psychology electives. Any opportunity at a job to take a new training on depression, abuse, mental illness-I took it. I needed to fill myself up with all this knowledge to do something with it.  To cure the human suffering with my knowledge and with the one spirit that changes lives. 

With this spirit and with my knowledge, it all came packaged together into something priceless.  This girl who wondered about suffering and the world did not sit back and sit on her curiosity.  She went out and explored different communities, different population from Los Angeles East LA, South side Chicago, Bronx New York, India, parts of Asia, Africa, and Middle East.  She bravely lead herself out into the world as one woman alone who had intentions to help, heal, spread love and spirit, and acknowledge others. When it's a purpose, it's not a job.  It's something that many don´t understand because they have not felt it- I apologize to those people and I hope they can feel it before our time has run out. 

The combination of knowledge, experience, and purpose is pure power.  When you have explored and connected with so many cultures and you can see, feel, and hear the impact-it's a pure blessing.

As a woman, I'm still curious about people, communities, history, politics, religion, art/history, violence, and human choice/behavior. My curiosity will never end because curiosity will always be present in a world so diverse and ever changing. The difference between then and now is that I'm not a little girl anymore. 

I can ACT on my curiosity and I feel empowered to create CHANGE with my higher power on my side and the world in need of my being and services.  The human suffering can be cured with medicine, but I plan to cure it with human interaction.   PRIS

Hope for Homeless

One of the biggest problems with the homeless population is that we don't acknowledge or believe in their being.  We don't believe that they have anything to offer the world and they are just wasting resources.  We don't listen to their thoughts, concerns, beliefs, values, or interests.  Instead we just watch them drown in sadness, sorrow, loneliness, and poverty.  We keep throwing money at the problem instead of just throwing a little bit of humanity. 

This population is completely lost in a sea of misery because they are hungry for connection. They are hungry for caring and acknowledgement. Instead of feeding them with food, they need to be fed a cup of love.  They need to feel love, belonging, and security.  Even with food distribution, what about the rest of it? This population is suffering from our continued ignorance and inability to connect with others. Just distributing food with no therapy, activity, discussion-this provides nothing to the soul.  The church is feeding these people, but they are craving love and attention. 

My first day at San Francisco Church, I made sure to make eye contact and smile with each and every person.  Of course, I might of missed a few, but the point should be understood.  These people need some recognition that they are humans.  They were confused with my presence and why I was even there. This shock happens when people give up on them. They have to stop and process why someone is there. Is she a social worker? Is she going to serve food? There were two unfriendly local women that were serving food and did not have any expression on their face. "Take your food and go so we can leave."  
It was not my job to engage in a rookie job when God had clear plans for me. The food that was distributed was rice, beans, and a chicken stew with tortillas. This food was given from a local organization.  They were fed Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Only on Wednesdays they could sit at the table and eat together. The other days they would take the food to go.  I asked Jose if it would be possible to eat inside for all three days to help build connections and engage in activities.  His answer was, "No, we don't do that." A great idea that makes sense can be completely rejected. The reality of this population is that you also work with organizations and other entities like the church who want to do things their own way. 

Fortunately, from Day 1, people were very receptive. Overall, it was the same group of people that were coming each week.  A group of
older men in their 60s who were open and honest about the difficulties of living day to day and not having the support they need. The goal was to build connections between the group members to utilize each others strengths, knowledge, and experience.  

There were different groups that were created- those with families, those elderly, middle age men, and youth.  It seemed that each group or each individual had a different story, but a similar theme-no support.  They would speak of addiction, difficulty finding a job, and not being able to get a job because the kids. There was one woman with such motivation to get a job and I connected her with a man who said he declined a bakery job because the hours.  I paid for them to take the bus and taxi over there and just like that she got the job. Two days later, she tells me that it was too far to commute.  She is then complaining and complaining instead of appreciation.  

Clearly, digging people out of the devaluing they experienced and the loss of their own being is difficult. The motivation, the support is down, and people become comfortable. The thought and positive intention is there, but the following through and staying consistent is the most difficult part. Therefore, this was definitely a challenge with my temporary encouragement and support, but sometimes believing in people makes them believe in themselves.  There was such inspiration and motivation in the air that I even inspired myself.  

-The architect from many years ago thought about putting his designs into action in the church. 
-The single mother thought about selling her specialty cakes in a street cart. 
-The addict who was sober for 49 days was inspired to keep going on. 
-The special needs child smiled more at meal time. 
-The man who always stays in the house thought about taking a 15 minute walk each day with serious motivational talk.  
-The woman who missed her husband shared her loss with another similar woman.
-Johnny demonstrated faith in seeing his children after they had been taken away 3 years ago. Johnny was a special man who played his guitar outside and he always ate right next to the tree.  He would call me "Indian Princess." 

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Many of these people are strongly holding on to their faith and it's their faith that keeps them alive.  They mention how thankful they are for their religion and the blessings Christ brings forth.  God was making connections and beings were being acknowledged. One person with 60 to 100 people can be just enough to smile, to believe, and to help out.  These positive ideas were moved into their conscious and it's an option to use them. With the work of the Lord, I hope they do.

In hope of educating others, I hope that people would understand why I chose to spend my time at that church. These people needed me in ways that are difficult to digest, but just think. Just think if you did not have those dinners out with friends, the supportive husband, the loyal pet for 5 years, the annoying mother, or the home to keep you safe.  

When we disregard this population, we are saying that these people do not deserve what we do because their choices. Some are veterans, some are victims of domestic abuse, some suffer from addiction, some lost a job, and some suffer from loss.  There are different reasons for their poverty, but we suffer from those same things. The only difference is that we have the tools to deal with the crisis, the break up, the job loss, the mom with cancer, the drug habit, the gambling problem, and the overall stress from society. We have the tools to deal with it and we don't share them with others? We just walk around as superior because materialism puts us on a pedestal?

This is not a religious life rather this is a life of a sad soul.  Those who are conscious of their behavior are worse than those who just have no awareness into their life or being.  It's sad that people can't help others in a real way rather they just help themselves, their family and their friends.

There are a world of people to help. Open up your eyes and create an opportunity for improving someones life.  PRIS

Truth About Nuns

When it comes to nuns, people often have their

preconceived notions and stereotypes.  Nuns are perfect humans created by God to serve him and others.  Nuns don't enjoy any music, go to the beach, or drink soda.  They have the same three meals a day and spend the whole day praying. 

First of all, many people are confused about their own religion and they have not found God.  Therefore, they judge those who have negatively rather than asking questions.  Asking questions about their experience, their daily routine, their interests, what they like to do, and their favorite food. There is such a fixation on their lifestyle and how they can sacrifice everything for this God. 

Why would someone do something like that?

Secondly, people believe that Nun's do not have interests like everyone else.  Nuns love to have fun just as much as any normal being. They enjoy the outdoors, they may love a certain sport of activity, they enjoy nice music, and they enjoy good food on occasion. Of course, they have a regular schedule to accomodate, but amongst their schedule they are allowed to enjoy.  God gives them permission to do that and be happy. 

Lastly, these sisters are better than most human beings. They are honest, loving, fun, caring, help their community, and have a passion for sharing his spirit. Some are reserved and some have more personality.  Some are more shy and quiet than others, but they are good people. They are good people who don't get enough appreciation or praise.
   
What makes them great is that instead of consistently engaging in wants and materialism, they engage in simple happiness. They get rid of the materialism and let their being shine. This is what makes them better people than the millionaire CEO with a Ferrari, every Apple device, and an empty soul. 

One should know that these women are wonderful women who make sacrifices to leave their family, to stay in one place permanently, to dedicate time to the church and community.


This experience was not my first time working with a nun and it will definitely not be my last.  
The Sisters I have met have been the opposite of what I would expect. The difference is that I share their faith and I have ultimate respect for them. 

Having the program from 2:30 to 5, it was wonderful having them participate. They would teach from 1:30 to 2:30 and they would also help them with homework.  After their part, I thought they would be done, but they engaged in the group exercises with kids.  Sister Mary was  unbelievably helpful when I was running activities.  She smiled, laughed, danced, made jokes, and she was full of life. Of course, she was 100 percent professional, but she was also human. It was so refreshing sitting with these nuns and hearing their values, interests, and passions. They were rather young in their 30s and shared they both chose Christ at a young age.  

When it comes to interests, Sister Mary shared that she went to the beach last week and she wore long shorts and a long sleeve loose top.  Sister Mary shared that she likes to eat pizza.  She usually eats what's given at the convent, but she loves the $1 pizza slices from the street(me too).   

As mentioned, they were annoyed with people's judgments against them even coming from their own family.  They don't understand why people think so negatively about their lifestyle.  I explained the same reasoning I wrote on this post and I empathized with how they felt. I found myself agreeing with them and shaking my head constantly. They both feel such judgment from others that they just don't get their life(me too). We all smile and hug each other realizing that we have to stick together and toss out the haters. They are not going to understand because they don't know the feeling of commitment. They may be all caught up with a pet, kids, sports, traveling, a relationship-but they aren't connected with the one thing that enhances life brightly. It changes your vision, your lens,  your desires, you needs/wants, and what's truly important. 

A vision can light up your soul and the rest of life fades into the distance.  

PRIS

Keep the Ball Rolling

After my meeting with Maria, I met with the Pastor.  His presence was beautiful and there was definite hope present.  The nice thing was that he did not speak negatively about his condition rather he mentioned feeling better and hoping for a full recovery when God grants it. With his time away from the church, he expresses his appreciation to have someone volunteering and helping out. 

While I discuss some group ideas with him, I also inform him that I will do an assessment giving my feedback after. Due to his health, he told me to continue all communication with Jose who is the director of the church. His interest was there, but I could tell he had difficulty keeping up with the conversation. 

After our meeting, I met Jose and then he introduced me to Sister Mary who had another after school project a few blocks away, which also needed assistance.  She was so kind and I knew that working with her was going to be great. She gave me the freedom to do whatever I wanted and this is exactly what I like to utilize my skills and help students to their maximum potential. An environment for fun and also for opening up.

Within two days, the ball was rolling and the energy was ready to be released in the church, the community, and even in my accommodation.  The ball was rolling fast with being pulled in all directions. There were so many projects and so little time. There were therapy sessions going on all over the place and priceless interactions of God.

While this seems like just enough, it was just the beginning. During the night, I was patrolling the streets for God's spirit to release. After 5 or 6 pm I would walk around and feed the homeless, talk with those who were troubled and willing to speak. There needed to be a friendly face for them to see. 

I was running from one place to the next and one person to the next. Also, I made commitments to the adorable little daughter of the dentist. We had a couple painting dates together.  I was just happy being of service -that's my happiest time in life.  
With a high demand and a great relationship with the culture and community-

Why not stay and keep the ball rolling?

Shifting Directions

When I go into a new city, sometimes I have a plan as I did in Guatemala, Belize, and Honduras. Even with a plan, it goes off course as I am still fully dedicated to people within the community.  I don't just give myself to strictly one place at the end of the day. Rather than taking just one direction, I believe in giving the most of myself to one or two things. Often I find better opportunities, but I already made the commitment.  

Therefore, why not wait and see what he finds for you? Truly, the best times are when I don't have a plan i.e. Nicaragua and Panama.  There was no map leading me one specific direction rather I had to figure it out with God's lead and the community needs. 

Leon is the second largest city in Nicaragua with a large amount of historic Spanish colonial churches(Wikipedia).  These churches largely interact with the community through projects, after school programs for children, support groups, music groups for youth, and food shelters/ distribution. It's an interactive community, which is one of my main reasons for loving it. There is not the wide gap between the rich and poor. It seems there is a middle class, a lower class, and the poor. 
When you ask people what are some of the social problems, they seem to know what is going on. Those from the street with real jobs and businesses were the ones who identified the community needs.  

Mi amigo exchanging money for people shared with me some information about a reading program via his friend.  He told me he would walk me over whenever I was ready to meet the guy in charge. This man was so helpful in such an altruistic way. I kindly thanked him and decided to stop by the church first. The owner's son of my accommodation recommended I stop by the San Francisco Iglesia....I did and God lead the way to a church of good people, a good pastor, and a place in need of some positive light. 

Confirmation Dos

When you follow a mission, a calling, or a passion-it's not a selfish decision rather it's one from a higher power. It's something you may wonder about, question, feel happiness and confusion, or maybe you just need some confirmation.

Confirmation is one of the most important parts of  purpose or calling.  When you start tuning into these confirmations and follow through with your purpose, you know you're in the right place.  It's not easy to be spiritually aware of the small signs that are being sent as confirmation.  It does require patience, practice, and an open mind/heart.  You will be surprised about what comes your way.

When you follow your confirmation and find your purpose-this is when the confirmation multiplies. Your higher power is indirectly telling you through people, places, events, signs, street names, churches. 

Sometimes you receive these confirmations indirectly from someone's awareness or improvement.  A person may feel inspired, have an "aha" moment.  A person may have conversation with you which made them question their own purpose and how to become better.  A person may confront their problems or sins and realize that there is still hope and light.  It is you who takes the time to listen to them, to acknowledge them, and to assist them.  When you learn you're impact, see your impact, hear your impact, and breathe it-this is when your know your purpose is on target.  You know  that you are exactly where you are suppose to be and This is the best feeling of satisfaction to your being. 

When you feel doubt, tune into confirmation.  It could just change your life.......PRIS

Out of your System

Does traveling ever really get out of your system? Or is it really just a lifelong passion, hobby, and commitment. People often ask the question, "When is it going to end?"
Translating to "When are you going to sit down and live a socially constructed life like the rest of us?"

People often want you to suffer in their own misery. They want you to ride in the same train with them, watch the same movies, and have similar hobbies. When it comes to someone living outside the box, they don't know how to respond. It's difficult to comprehend why someone would want to go off the "normal"path.

When will you get back on the path?
You want to create your own?
What?

It doesn't register that people want something different, something satisfying to Gods purpose and path for you. A path that involves helping others live better lives rather than just focusing on your own day to day routine and family commitment. 

To be honest, I had it set in my head that I would stop traveling at 30 and I would sign up for the socially constructed life. I had a relationship that I thought would lead down the marriage path, but it did not work out.
Even if I did find someone, it would have to be someone who shares my drive, passion, and desire to conquer the world one person at a time. 

Although, the whole love thing just feels so out of my system as I am determined and focused on my work. When you find a real purpose, it's a gift to be cherished not to just be disregarded. 

God did not lead me that way rather I am being sent out into the world to assist people who need my spirit to guide them, a shoulder to cry on, an angel to touch them, and a heart to empathize with them. While they are all new cultures, the human being and it's values remain the same. Humans all over the world are awaiting someone to acknowledge them, the listen, to learn, to create, to educate, to build, to connect with them. It is so much more fulfilling than I could ever ask for and I would not expect most people to understand.  The only thing I could ask for would be love, guidance, and support. 



When it comes to traveling and purpose, they are correlating more and more with each and every travel. It's not just exploring rather its a cultural learning experience. It's interacting with locals and empowering them, validating their hard work, helping them seek purpose in their life, helping with kids or family problems. It's about building community by identifying strengths within individuals and families. Always exploring churches and actively observing their influence in the community. There are always people that will need my help around the world- and that will never end- never. It's my life commitment dedicated to people since the age of 10 years old. I received a calling and I follow it until my death.

 So to answer your question,

"The traveling never ends, it just grows with personal purpose and determination."