Everything has Changed

When it comes to the number 30, it’s not the actual number rather it’s the moving into a new decade. The decade of the 20s and 30s are very different for me. It really started in the late 20s. I just became more aware of my thoughts, my action, my behavior, my reactions, my attitude, my desires, my wastes of time, my productivity, my true core being, and my life choices.


With the ten years of living large and living life to the fullest, life was   great, but something was missing.  The ability to prioritize things was out of place. While self-improvement was always a priority, there were so many things I could have done, but I didn’t take full action.


Opportunities did pass me up as I could have got into acting and event planning, but I didn’t. I worked hard and I stayed on a purposeful track helping others. Perhaps that is the way it was suppose to be. As human beings, we are greedy with our accomplishments and we always feel like we could do more. 

I could have traveled more when younger

I could have spent less time on face book.

I could have been or done something different

I could have spent more time writing.

I could have invested less time in relationships

I could have listened more to God and less to people who don’t understand my life

I could have utilized more support in times of need

I could have been more of a leader

Everyone has these real thoughts that present themselves time in and time out.  It just takes a realization that You did the best with the cards you were dealt and that’s all God would want from you. 

When it comes to this statement, “Everything has Changed,” this could not be more true at 30. Some things have changed for the better and others for the worst.  Life still keeps moving, I keep the faith, and I appreciate what I’ve learned. I couldn’t be happier to have the mind that I do. It’s like all the experiences-professional and personal are in overdrive spilling out of my brain.


The creativity, the entrepreneurial ideas, the rate of efficiency, the analysis of people, and the power of my faith. I feel like I learned enough about people to truly read them. This is a special skill, which I am the most proud of and benefits me in work, travel, spiritually, and internally.  There is just an element of peace that has come over. I don’t feel the need to accomplish and do everything. I am content with my life just writing, traveling, educating, therapy/counseling, and just being of service to others at all times.  The need for constant socialization is replaced with the need for constant service to others and building my relationship with God. 

 

Also, when it comes to outside the brain.  I’m so much more comfortable in my skin as I never truly felt beautiful. I was so insecure with my body image, especially living in Los Angeles and New York and even Chicago.

At 30, I can confidently say, “I am beautiful inside and out.” While people do comment on my “beauty,” I appreciate it, but it’s not necessary. The stamp of approval is not needed because I feel it in my own skin. It took time for that confidence to come to my life. An element of peace has come over my life and my body.

Mind+Thoughts+Action+Habit+Destiny=

                           30 

As the Rush comes

Traveling somewhere could be anywhere 

There's a coldness in the air, but I don't care 

We drift deeper 

Life goes on

We drift deeper into the sound

Traveling somewhere could be anywhere

There's a coldness in the air, but I don't care

We drift deeper

Life goes on  

Feeling strong 

So bring it on 

Bring it on 

Embrace me 

Surround me

As the rush comes

As the rush comes

-Tiesto-

Autos y Ojos

Sometimes I get lost just staring out the window and thinking different things about people, life, the world, and everything underneath the sun. There is such beauty and I never get bored with it rather it always gives some additional meaning to the moments I share with the world. Whether its a man planting some corn, street vendors selling fruit, a woman carrying her baby on ber back, a sunrise, or a sky full of stars. There is always something to be seen, to be analyzed, to be curious about, to question, and to believe in. 

Always keep your eyes wide open and your mind curious. PRIS